current mood - missing my baby badly =(

"The only wrong thing would be to deny what your heart truly feels."

Got this line form The Mask Of Zorro. Wala lang, nakarelate lang.

collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow findYou and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

(october 25-26)
wala lang.. masaya lang ako :D

(october 22)
Nothing's new for today. We had our council meeting this morning; I did well with my work; I smiled at everyone; I was so happy not until I talked to him. I asked him something that really bothers me these past few days. He said it is not true. Somehow, I was relieved but still a bit sad. To take away all the sadness, I decided to watch a movie - "deuce bigalow". It was nice and it really made me laugh. I came home late, and felt asleep with tears....

Another ordinary day for me, but not an ordinary feeling. We went home together; I started to feel uneasy again with him. It feels like we're new acquaintance. When his skin touched mine, it felt so strange. Naiilang ako.. na naman.

something to ponder

A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation, his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed, the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the young man's name embossed in gold. Angrily, he raised his voice to his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?", and stormed out of the house, leaving the Bible.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away,and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. His father had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11, "And if ye, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?" As he read those words, a car key dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; butremember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for... IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKED THE WAY YOU WANT IT,IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKED THAT WAY! ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLETHINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO ATTACHMENTS!

miss daw :D

My day started out fine and it also ended soOooo fine :D he smiled at me a lot of times, he winked, he gave me naughty looks and lovely grins..huay! Here I go again. He hugged me tight before I get off from his car. While he was hugging me, sadness and happiness filled my heart. It is a mixed emotion..huay..Namiss ako? Baby?

project's anniversary

After nights of overtime at the office, our project's anniversary was a success.

pagod na naman..huay..

We're almost done with the preparations. We already have put some decorations; I'm done with the guests's list, raffle stubs and stuffs. Everyone's excited for tomorrow. =) excited na din ako!

On my way home, a friend told me that I should not believe in everything that he had said and would be saying. I felt bad because I know he was just trying to tell me that he might not telling me what's really within him. Ewan ko, but I feel that he's honest in every words that he said.

Umiiyak na naman ang pusa.....

I spent my whole day at the office. We still have a lot of things to do for the preparations for our project's anniversary this coming wednesday. I brought a box of buko pie for pasalubong for GPTW council. Today was a very tiring day.. whew!

sale!! sale!! sale!!

Yesterday I left office at exactly 3:00 pm because I have to attend my friend's debut party. I told him that I have to leave early and he just said, " sabi ko nga..". Eto na naman kami =( I went to Laguna with some friends. I had fun though..

We went back to Manila at 2:00 pm. I went straight to Robinson's Place Manila. Gladly I was able to buy some stuffs. I bought a pair of shoes and a shirt that really made me jump with happiness. It's with a "good girl" print. Nice talaga! Hehe, indeed I am a good girl! :D

pay day!

...but I was not in the mood to buy stuff for anyone even for myself so I just went straight home. Ryan went to house and asked me if I could help him with his project so I helped him out. It felt awkward because things between us are different now. He's my ex-boyfriend, and knowing that he still loves me, it made me feel more uncomfy. It makes me feel bad to know that someone is crying just because of me. =( I pray that he would find someone who would love him more than I did.

preparing for the big night

We had our last council meeting for next week's big night. I started to feel the pressure because we were assigned to do all the preparations and stuffs. Big bosses would be around so a little mistake would create a big wrong impression. Gladly my co-council members are very suportive and optimistic that we would definitely have fun.

happy birthday kuya!!

Happy birthday kuya charles! Goodluck sa lovelife! :D

huay, miss na kita talaga!!!

happy birthday alboi!

bogs, salamat sa carbonara ala malibay and crablets ala bogs! :D

h a p p y b i r t h d a y !

.... missing my baby badly!

i am too blessed to be stressed!

Although things are not perfect

Because of trial or pain

Continue in thanksgiving

Do not begin to blame

Even when the times are hard

Fierce winds are bound to blow

God is forever able

Hold on to what you know

Imagine life without His love

Joy would cease to be

Keep thanking Him for all the things

Love imparts to thee

Move out of "Camp Complaining"

No weapon that is known

On earth can yield the power

Praise can do alone

Quit looking at the future

Redeem the time at hand

Start every day with worship

To "thank" is a command

Until we see Him coming

Victorious in the sky

We'll run the race with gratitude

eXalting God most high

Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...

Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!


"I am too blessed to be stressed!"


The shortest distance between aproblem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.

kakamiss...

)
(at Gilligan's with lhen, divina, tine and pauline)



... pero mas namimiss ko yung "binagoongang talong" saka calamares! :D

5th month...

There's a big difference between letting go and giving up -

• letting go is sacrificing what was rightfully yours,

• giving up is forgetting what was never yours..

Now, can you help me?

Should I let go or give up?

questions..

A friend talked to me about him. She shared me what she knows about him - her perceptions of what's between me and him. I had talked to her before, but this time it's a totally different story. She told me that I should stop on loving him and start moving on with my life. Why is it everyone's telling me to stop this feeling? And why is it I can't forget about him and live my life alone?

I am lost, I don't know what I should do. I longer don't know what to feel. I want to tell him that I hate him for huritng me but I am not even mad at him; I want to cry my heart out but tears won't fall. Everything's way out of hand. I never wanted this kind of life, why did you let things go this way? And why did I let you? Why can't you just be man enough to take all the consequences of your actions? Why am I hurting? So many questions left unaswered, I just pray that everything would be settled while I still care. Huay...... =(

life...

Life is like a piano - the white keys represent happiness and the black keys show sadness. But as we go through life's journey, remember that the black keys also create music.

LSS - baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you say, do you say what you mean?
I want our love to last forever

*But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say?
When you say our love could last forever(*)

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

I was believing in you
I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow(*)

na naman....

I visited my grandmother in Bulacan with my tatay. We brought her some pasalubongs and stuffs. I missed her and my cousins as well, and I know they missed me too. I told her that I will find time to visit her again sooner. Lola, thanks for the scrumptious sinigang...yummy!!! :D


(I assume, I'll fall asleep crying with his thoughts...)

....

praying that I could have the guts to talk to him about things........ ='(

sooner....

Today's my first day as a regular personnel. I am excited to start my new year at work right. We had our teamwide meeting this morning. I presented reports on GPTW council. Then after the said meeting, I kept myself busy and focused on my work so I won't stuck with his thoughts. But as always, I failed. Around 1:00 PM, I was hardly controlling myself on not sending him sweetnothings. Somehow, I was able to not to do so. But my thoughts were with him. He's so cold, as if I am not existing at all. (sala sa init, sala sa lamig!)

On our way home, I just gave him a tight hug before getting off from his car. I'm still clueless about our relationship or is there really a relationship that I can call. Sooner, I have to know... sooner, things would be clear and settled. I fell asleep crying... =(