you are so blessed

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness, you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week.
If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation, you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.
If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death, you are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world.
If you have food in your refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75% of this world.
If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
If your parents are still married and alive, you are very rare, especially in the United States.
If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful, you are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even touch them on the shoulder,you are blessed because you can offer God's healing touch.
If you can read this message, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read anything at all.
You are so blessed in ways, you may never even know.

='(

baby.................................

waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! ='(

I HATE "ME"!!!!!!!!!!!!

LSS - (all i've got)

If I could just find a way
to get inside your heart
I would be the luckiest guy

If I can just be the one
who'll be by your side
just a chance to feel what it's like

And I'll do anything
to be in his shoes
coz I know i could give even more

*Baby this love, it's all that I've got
More than diamonds and pearls
and all the wealth in this world
Baby this love, it is all that I've got
but I know it's gonna last forever, and ever

(Oohh love, is all that I've got)
It's all that I've got

Standing outside your world
wishing you'd let me in
and I'd show you what my love can bring
helplessly hoping you'd give me half a chance
coz I know I'm just one step away

And I live in a dream
that I wish would come true
waiting for a happy ending(*)

(forever and ever)
I may not have too much to give
but how can you stop feeling so strong
All I ever want to be
is right by your side
(right by your side)
Right by your side(*)

='(

     wanting....

          hoping....

               dreaming....

                    needing....

     longing....

                   hurting....

                    LOVING....

='(

God! I miss him so much.................... ='(

pc! pc! pc! pc!

Today's not my usual sundays. Iwoke up at 11:00 AM because I have to go to a computer store with my sister. Finally, after a week of canvassing and deliberations on which to buy, we bought a new computer set at Gigahertz in SM San Lazaro. My Tito Art lent us his Revo. My sister's friend help us out in doing the installations and stuffs needed. I was too busy this afternoon - at night I got fever. =( Sana magaling na ako bukas.

We had our leadership seminar this morning, and part of the seminar was a raffle. Fortunately, my name was picked. I won an Accenture stainless mug. Thanks to Miss Ann for the mug...hehe! :D Swerte! Another good karma for being a good girl. =)

I was feeling great today, but I get a bit sad when we were on our way home. Huay...he seemed to be cold. Yet, I didn't try to find out why he was acting like that. I just let him be, afterall I don't have the right to ask him why......

you need this

GOLDEN RULES FOR LIVING


If you open it, close it.
If you turn it on, turn it off.
If you unlock it, lock it up.
If you break it, admit it.
If you can't fix it, call in someone who can.
If you borrow it, return it.
If you make a mess, clean it up.
If you move it, put it back.
If it belongs to someone else and you want to use it,
get permission.
If you don't know how to operate it, leave it alone.
If it's none of your business, don't ask questions.
If it ain't broke, don't fix it.
If it will brighten someone's day, say it.
If it will tarnish someone's reputation,
keep it to yourself.

='( all is just a dream...

we've kissed a thousand times
talked and laughed together
you hugged me so tight
I closed my eyes for we're together
I was so sure you'll stay with me
but then I wake up from a dream..
yes, I am a dreamer..
all is just a dream
for I can't have you even for an hour..
staring at the moon, I ask
why do I have to crave for your love?
though I knew you never see me through
'cause there's someone who already owns your heart..
how can I have a sweet soul like you?
I see the stars they're laughing at me
saying so many things, yes I knew those are real..
it's only a fantasy that will you close to me
and that fantasy speaks no hope..

keeping my temper cool....

You sound as if you knew everything. You have the guts to tell me those things as if you knew me personally. Well just to clear your mind - you don't know me well, you don't know me even a bit. So, would you please stop acting like you're a God. You don't know the whole story, you don't have any rights to talk to me that way. I don't know you, you don't know me as well, so leave me alone, mind you own. You're starting to get into my nerves. I don't want to start any trouble between you and me and whosoever. Kung meron man nasaktan at niloko, ako yun at hindi siya. I just did what I have to do, I've been honest with him, eh siya ba? Everything's clear to me now, I've given him my all, I've done my part well but he just took them all forgranted. Minahal ko siya pero sinayang niya lang. But still, he didn't hear anything from me. Even after the break-up, I still do help him with his studies. I stayed up late just to finish his school works even I have to wake up at 3:30 am the next day. Nagpakabayani nga ako eh, bayaning nabalewala - binalewala niya. Kaya kung wala kang magawa, puede 'wag kang manggulo.

* kilig mode :x *

...at 8:21:31 am he said "i miss u" :x waaaaa, i miss you too baby!

walang magwa ang pusa baw :D

just wanted to share some pics from picasa :D

last day

LIFE CHANGES, MEMORIES DON'T =)

Just like what I always say, there will be no goodbyes between us - just see you later.

seven wonders

7 wonders of falling in love

meeting someone

knowing that someone

understanding that person

accepting

loving

letting go when you have to

remembering when it's gone

:D

syempre kain.. tulog.. kain.. tulog.. kain.. tulog.. hehe! :p

baby...

i tried to fight it
but it was too strong..
i tried to forget it
but it was already there..
i tried to stop it
but it bacame fullblown..

now, i have no choice but to admit it..

i've helplessly fallen in love with you!

good karma =)

Today's our project wide meeting for September. Me, with my co-council members were assigned to take charge of the said meeting. It all started out well, our unit lead joined us in doing the icebreaker. It was his first time to eat pulvuron. (dear diary pala ako sa'yo sir dennis! :D) I won in the raffle, I won an Accenture's backpack. Hehe! Reward for being a good girl!

The mood was suddenly changed when we do the judging for our theme day. Everyone was asked to be in their mismatched outfit, but not everyone participated. As a penalty for non-compliance, the council was asked to get a shoe from anyone who was not properly dressed. Anticipatedly, some still kept their stand not to give their shoe. Gladly, I kept my composure. Ayokong pumatol baka lumaki pa issue.

The announcement of winners went well. Thank you to all those who participated and helped us out. Before my office day ended, he kissed me! *giggle* Huay, he's so sweet! Torete na naman ako.. :D And before he left the office, I hugged him tight and gave him a quick kiss on his cheek. That's what I call a good karma for keeping my temper cool. =)

saya toh!

THE ROOM

The best thing to relax you remind is to take a visit to these rooms.

just for once

:D He's been so sweet these past few days. And honestly speaking, I love it when he's like that. Somehow, I am able to him my affection. *giggle* We held hands, we hugged, we kissed...sigh! I love this feeling! And I love my king! We are aware that what we're having is wrong in some ways because he already has someone. But the feeling is so right, I love him, he loves me and he loved her. Just like Barry Manilow's song goes - we have the right love at the wrong time. To defy norms is socially unacceptable, definitely! But then again, I am in love... I am happily in love. Do I still need to tell you more? So, if you don't mind - please allow me to be happy just for once.

boy...

i love you!!! muah!!!

not really

you're there but not really...
you're mine but not really...
I never really have you so I will never really lose you...
I suppose this is how we'll always be...
I have you...
you have me...
but then again...
NOT REALLY.


Some people choose to love and avoid getting hurt and some choose to love and get hurt. Once you fall in love, you're inevitable to hurt, sleepless nights and tears. There will be no more immunity left for you to use as an excuse - may it be right or wrong. I always dream of having a nearly perfect man, a smooth-sailing relationship and a perfect love. And to tell you, I have already found it. Unfortunately, he already has someone. That's made me a dreamer - and yes, I am a dreamer. It is only fantasy that can bring him close to me and that fantasy speaks no hope. But I believe that dreams do come true, that hope is real.

I ask him once if he wanted me to stay. He said yes, of course because I love you. And since I love him too, I told him that I will stay with him as long as he wants me to. But I haven't ask him this yet - until when will you let me live in my world of dreams?

with my tears...

Doldrums is with me once again. It effortlessly makes me feel weak. I may seem to be happy and I bet my friends can't tell that my life is such a gloomy one. Although I am not alone, I can still feel the emptiness in me. (drama ito!) I told myself that I won't cry for anything or anyone that have hurt me but sometimes crying makes me feel good. It is my outlet of hurt and sadness.

I am now actually staring at his picture - that is what the norms allowed me to do, to just stare. The heck with all the norms! =( There were times that I wished I don't have the right way of thinking. And there were also times that I am so grateful that I still can think the right way. Sigh! I don't know what else to say. My mind starts to get busy again of his thoughts. I guess, it's time for me now to focus my mind on him until I see him in my dreams.

By the way, his picture is now tainted with my tears. See you in my dreams baby...

ha..ha..ha!

sorry, but I won't waste my precious time on you.

should i?.. can i?

..he loves me.. I love him.. he loves me.. he loves her.. what a mess! I am still stuck, I can't have the guts and will to do what I suppose to do. Should I continue fighting for what I feel and accept all the consequences of my actions? Or should I love back the one who loves me and forget about my feelings for him? Waaaaaaa ='( but... can I?

:p

tulog nanaman ang pusa from 4:00 am till 8:25 pm :D

...

I dreamt of him kissing me softly. I guess I dreamt of him because of his kiss last night. His kiss wasn't that long because there were also other people around us that might have seen us and have us reported. Nah! I don't want that to happen. But that kiss was so "bitin!". :D Gladly no one saw us, I still kept myself compose and told him to stop it. (plastic noh? :p)

My day was fine. I was able to do my tasks for GPTW; he smiled at me a lot of times; everyone's nice to me; and we're done with the remedial class for newly IMG 3 peeps.

On our way home, he was so sweet. I wish I could be just "her". But I am me, still, I am glad that I am me because somehow I know that he loves me and maybe he loves me more than I know.


Though I was with him, I still hate saturdays because I will miss him....huay!

tsup! tsuup! tsuuup! :p

with a kiss

it all began with a... kiss

but kisses wither and die

unless the first caress is true...

kiss... these lips that burn in a kiss...

are only learning to lie

unless

the first caress

is true...

so hold me tight and whisper

words of

love

against my eyes

and kiss me sweet - and promise

me your

kisses won't be lies.

kiss...

ad show me, tell me of bliss...

because i know i will die

unless

the first caress

is true...

come what may!

=( The first error for my group for this month was from my production. It made me feel bad. Good thing I still have more days to make-up. My team captain informed me that I was able to qualify for this month's incentive program. Somehow, this news made me feel good.

Me with my co-members in GPTW Council had a meeting with our adviser. We discussed some things he have to do for saturday's activity and for the rest of the month.

I had my contract signing with an HR representative, two managers and Lay, Ann and Mikel. One of the managers kept on teasing me, and of course, I just kept on smiling the whole time..hehe! :p He kept on smiling too!

I talked to a friend whom I know have something to tell me about him. Anticipated, she gave me same advice - do what is right! I actually know what that "right thing" is, but the problem is I can't do it. I honestly tried but I failed. I am still not really ready for reality. I am still living in a world of dreams, waiting for something or someone to wake me up to end this dream I am having and refusing to end - waiting for a happy ending? I just pray that everything would be into their places as soon as possible. The pain is too much but I don't want this love to fade. Argh! Come what may!

"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it is yours. But if it doesn't, it was never meant to be."

personal deception

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?" Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river.


You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others' words if our conscience is clear.

he loves me!

King text me asking me --> "Ano ako sa'yo? - hands, face, lips, eyes, nose or brain?". I replied with, "Puede lahat? :p Bakit wala heart? Since I love your eyes, eyes na lang po." And it turned out that the meaning of eyes is ORDINARY FRIEND. So I text him again saying, "Ay, nose pala! Ako ano ako sa'yo?". And he said nose :D my heart immediately did a summersault! Hehe because nose is love, and he loves me!

at last!

At exactly 8:30 this morning, I am at the 39th branch of MRTC at Manila City Hall for the fifth time. The staffs were the only ones who were inside the room. So I decided to have something for breakfast first. When I came back, he was there seated - the one who mugged me a year ago. He looked at me as if he was surprised that I was there. I pretended like I did not notice him looking at me. And so the proceedings started. I was given a copy of the statement I have made a year ago to refresh myself of what had happened on the 25th of July, 2004 at 3:30 A.M.

As I was reading the said statement, he asked me, "Miss, bayaran ko na lang yung celfon?". The nerve, I was totally pissed off! But I kept myself compose and just answered him with a simple, "No." Few minutes later, the fiscal told me that he pleaded guilty prior to the actual trial. Gladly, I did not have to sit in front of everyone and do some talks. I really don't know how would I feel be seated on the trial stand. Kakatense yun for sure! Fiscal told me that we no longer have to do the long process of trial because he already admitted the accusations. So I was able to leave that place early.

Around 1:00 P.M., I went to Divisoria and do some shops. Hehe, I was not able to control myself on buying not so important things. Ang gastos this weekend! :p

:D

tulog ang pusa from 3:20 am till 6:20 pm :D

huay........

It's saturday once again.. and of course, I will miss him. I will just try to keep myself busy, go somewhere else where I can stop thinking of him even for awhile, or try to get ENOUGH sleep.

I was able to talk to a friend this morning. I shared him my queries. What about? - what else, about king. He just told me that if I really love him, I have to wait for him to make his decision on certain things. That's what I am actually doing since day one. I am waiting for him to make a decision to stand on because I don't want to put on my demands. I want everything to be of mutual choice. I asked him what are his plans, he was not able to give me a clear answer. =( Well I guess, to wait is the best thing that I can do... I don't know if any good will come out of my actions, I just pray that I will be able to accept all the consequences of this action.

Hope everyone will have a happy long weekend! (we don't have office on tuesday, it's a holiday in the U.S) And for me, I will try to have a happy one....

...taking things slowly because i know that He has a better way.

kwentong hotdog

Habang naglilinis ang flatmate kong si Clarissa ng refrigerator ay napansin niya ang nag-iisang pulang hotdog sa sulok ng freezer. Napagtanto niya na ang hotdog ay nahulog mula sa supot ng maraming hotdog at gumulong sa likod ng freezer. Hindi na namin napansin kaya noong niluto na namin ang mga hotdog, hindi ito napasama. Kaya ayun, nag-iisa na lang siya at literally ay "left out in the cold". Kung may feelings lang ang mga hotdogs, ano kaya nararamdaman niya na mag-isa na lang siya sa freezer, habang ang mga kasamahan niya ay naluto na at nakain? Lahat ng kasama niya sa supot na iyon, na-fulfill na ang mission sa buhay na makain - maliban sa kanya. Lahat ba talaga ng mga hotdog ay kailangan kainin? Baka naman nagbubunyi iyong nag-iisang hotdog dahil malaya pa rin siya, habang ang lahat ng kasama niya ay tunaw na. Pero possible din na nalulungkot siya kapag naaalala niya ang mga kasamahan niya. Maaaring naghahanap siya ng warm body na makakatabi lalo na kapag hindi nade-defrost ang ref at kumakapal na ang yelo. Siguro, minsan, sinusubukan niya ring i-comfort ang sarili niya sa pag-iisip na siya ay nasa "better place" kesa sa mga kasama niya. O baka gusto niya i-defy ang notion na lahat ng hotdog ay kailangan kainin. Baka handa na siya sa fate niya na siya ang hotdog na hindi makakain at mabubulok na mag-isa.

Noong isang araw, bumili ako ng hotdog. Pero hindi tulad noong nag-iisang hotdog na naiwan sa ref, chicken hotdog ang binili ko. Pero okay lang, hotdog pa rin iyon. Sinama ko ang red hotdog sa supot ng mga brown na chicken hotdog. Binalak ko na prituhin sila for breakfast. At last, mafu-fulfill na rin ng naiwang hotdog ang mission niya sa buhay. At last, maluluto na rin siya at makakain bukas. Kaya lang, bago matulog ay napaisip ako. Ano kaya ang mararamdaman ng hotdog kung maluto ko nga siya, pero hindi naman niya gusto ang mga kasama niya sa frying pan? Kaya pa ba niyang maghintay sa mga pulang hotdog na bibilhin ko in the future? Kailangan ba talaga siya maluto at makain? Paano kung masaya na siya na nag-iisa?

Nakaka-relate ako sa nag-iisang hotdog na hindi pa naluluto at nakakain. Isa-isa nang kinakasal ang mga kaibigan ko. At hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko na maaaring maiiwan akong mag-isa sa loob ng freezer. May isang supot ng chicken hotdog sa tabi ko pero ayokong sumama sa kanila. Mas gugustuhin ko na lang ang mag-hintay dahil naniniwala ako na may mga bagong supot ng pulang hotdog na darating. Pero kung sakali mang walang dumating, siguro ihanda ko na ang sarili ko na may mga hotdog na mas masaya na maiwan sa loob ng freezer na mag-isa.

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A friend of mine sent me this story. At first, I thought it was just a funny story but it was not. It was actually a story of reality - on loving and hurting. Then, I realized that, somehow, I can also relate to this one. There are times that I am thinking of having a family (but not until I reach the age of 26-27). I started wondering when will I meet my man, or have I already met him. I wanted to say that I already did. It's just that, things between us won't allow us to be together the way we want us to be - the way I want us to be. Maybe because it's too early to tell that yes, he's the one I've been waiting for. But I know myself so well, I love him and I really do. Sad to say, he doesn't know it, rather he chose not to believe in me because of how we became close and how I easily ended up my relationship of almost two years. He might be thinking that if ever he'll end up being with me, I will easily give him up if ever I met someone I like or whatsoever. Sadly, he still doesn't know the real me..I guess. It may seem easy on me but it was not. I love him more so I made a choice. A choice that made me hurting and happy at the same time. I just did what I think and feel is right - a fair decision for everyone, I hope. And now, here I am - still loving... and longing. Afterall these thoughts - in the end, it is still best to wait for the one I want rather than to settle for what is available. It is still best to wait for the one I love rather than to settle for the one who is around.

very soothing

an interview with HIM

what does love mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds - "Wha does love mean?". The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." - Rebecca, 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." - Billy, 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." - Karl, 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." - Chrissy, 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." - Terri, 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." - Danny, 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" - Emily, 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." - Bobby, 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." - Nikka, 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." - Noelle, 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." - Tommy, 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." - Cindy, 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." - Clare, 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." - Elaine, 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." - Chris, 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." - Mary Ann, 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." - Lauren, 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." - Karen, 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." - Mark, 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." - Jesica, 8

And the final one -

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is all you need.

(I just wanted to start the month right. *sheesh*)