with my tears...

Doldrums is with me once again. It effortlessly makes me feel weak. I may seem to be happy and I bet my friends can't tell that my life is such a gloomy one. Although I am not alone, I can still feel the emptiness in me. (drama ito!) I told myself that I won't cry for anything or anyone that have hurt me but sometimes crying makes me feel good. It is my outlet of hurt and sadness.

I am now actually staring at his picture - that is what the norms allowed me to do, to just stare. The heck with all the norms! =( There were times that I wished I don't have the right way of thinking. And there were also times that I am so grateful that I still can think the right way. Sigh! I don't know what else to say. My mind starts to get busy again of his thoughts. I guess, it's time for me now to focus my mind on him until I see him in my dreams.

By the way, his picture is now tainted with my tears. See you in my dreams baby...