not really

you're there but not really...
you're mine but not really...
I never really have you so I will never really lose you...
I suppose this is how we'll always be...
I have you...
you have me...
but then again...
NOT REALLY.


Some people choose to love and avoid getting hurt and some choose to love and get hurt. Once you fall in love, you're inevitable to hurt, sleepless nights and tears. There will be no more immunity left for you to use as an excuse - may it be right or wrong. I always dream of having a nearly perfect man, a smooth-sailing relationship and a perfect love. And to tell you, I have already found it. Unfortunately, he already has someone. That's made me a dreamer - and yes, I am a dreamer. It is only fantasy that can bring him close to me and that fantasy speaks no hope. But I believe that dreams do come true, that hope is real.

I ask him once if he wanted me to stay. He said yes, of course because I love you. And since I love him too, I told him that I will stay with him as long as he wants me to. But I haven't ask him this yet - until when will you let me live in my world of dreams?