big girls don't cry.. but i do
BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY - FERGIE
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, serenity
[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
[CHORUS]
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, serenity
[CHORUS]
[CHORUS]
La Da Da Da Da Da
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Here I am again..
I used to hear this song again and again until I had a LSS of it. It has been quite awhile when I use to check new songs, listen to them whenever possible, check their lyrics if they matches my story and posting them all here if they do so. Just like this one from Fergie. Actually, this song does not really apply on me now but it used to. When? A year and 10 months ago (hehe, very detailed huh?). Each line of this song hits me. They hit me like a stone that made me remember the past that used to be out of my thoughts. The story of the song applies to me then; when all my thoughts are of him, all my actions are for his sake, all my words are for his ears and... when all of my heart beats only for him.
THEN. I had a decision wherein I tried to erase all of these feelings, like he does not exist at all. I promised myself then that there would be no more drama, no more sleepless nights, no more of him. I am proud to say that I was able to. I don't know him, and I don't who he is - I told myself. I kept my head up, stared at him blankly whenever our eyes met. I don't know you that well after all and I don't want to know you - again to myself. I am a big girl, I don't cry for reasons that deal with him. My friends say I am tough, and I know I am.
NOW. I still hear this song, and everytime I hear this one I realize that I am not a big girl at all. Because big girls don't cry. Somehow I am but everytime I remember all the pains that I used to feel; all the thoughts of him with another girl; all the lies that I made myself believed; all the shed tears.. I cannot help myself but to cry.
And everytime I cry, he's there telling me while wiping my tears "stop crying na baby, mahal na mahal kita. Kayo ni baby. I don't have any worries or doubts kasi I trust you, sana ganon ka din sa akin."
After hearing all those words, I will hug him tight and will give him a kiss and say "sorry, emotera eh :D I know baby. I feel more than I see."
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