pay day!

...but I was not in the mood to buy stuff for anyone even for myself so I just went straight home. Ryan went to house and asked me if I could help him with his project so I helped him out. It felt awkward because things between us are different now. He's my ex-boyfriend, and knowing that he still loves me, it made me feel more uncomfy. It makes me feel bad to know that someone is crying just because of me. =( I pray that he would find someone who would love him more than I did.