sooner....

Today's my first day as a regular personnel. I am excited to start my new year at work right. We had our teamwide meeting this morning. I presented reports on GPTW council. Then after the said meeting, I kept myself busy and focused on my work so I won't stuck with his thoughts. But as always, I failed. Around 1:00 PM, I was hardly controlling myself on not sending him sweetnothings. Somehow, I was able to not to do so. But my thoughts were with him. He's so cold, as if I am not existing at all. (sala sa init, sala sa lamig!)

On our way home, I just gave him a tight hug before getting off from his car. I'm still clueless about our relationship or is there really a relationship that I can call. Sooner, I have to know... sooner, things would be clear and settled. I fell asleep crying... =(