"almost single"

Sigh! I thought I could get a complete 8-hour sleep last night. But I woke up early, so I decided to come with my friend to greenhills. We looked for something to buy. My friend bought some shirts and a pair of shoes, I was not able to buy something because I was not in the mood to try on clothes that I found nice. We had a snack at KFC then we decided to go home. When we were at Legarda, I decided to go to SM Manila to look for a shirt that I was not able to get at Robinson's Galleria yesterday. Gladly, I found one. I really like that shirt because of its tag line - "almost single". It was really cute!!! My friends told me that that tag line suits me well. It made me think, "am I almost single?". I was saddened for a moment ='( it even made me cry but I didn't show them what I really felt that time.

Yes, I am almost single. Why? Simply because I am in love someone that I can't even call my boyfriend, I can't call him mine though we both love each other (that's what he used to tell me). But I am still glad that, somehow, I have him. I am happy at the same time hurting. It's complicated but I am happy with it. I am not contented with have we're having but I know don't completely have the right to ask him for something I know will be hard for him to do. Sigh! I guess, all I can do is to wait for the right time - to ask him to be mine and to have a real relationship or to tell him that I can no longer go on hurting someone and to end everything we've had. This may seem to be easy for me, but deep inside, I can't imagine leaving him. I can't just leave someone I love and loves me as well. Not unless he tells me to. Sigh! (Again and again and again..) Back to the shirt I bought at American Boulevard, I am glad I already have this one.

I am single..almost single!