back to square one

I was planning to avoid him and forget all about my feelings simply because what we're having is wrong - definitely wrong. I am not saying that loving him is a big mistake. It's just that he already have someone. Yes, and it always makes me feel guilty everytime I think of his girl. I even have dreamt of her even I have not seen her in person. I tried hard not to send him sms or IM messages, but I failed. I can't! I just can't let go of this feeling! I love him so much but I don't want to bring up any trouble between him and his girl. The song "constantly" is playing right now (I've been playing this song for the nth time especially everytime I'm at the office). Again, all my plans are now undone. Rather, my plans will always be "plans". And when he said "Uwi na tayo?" - I know I am back to square one. Back to do what we used to do, to have what we used to have and to be what we used to be.

I love you baby! I pray that one morning, I will be waking up happily because things are into where they should be.